Sex toy part 3- SasoDei

Chapter 3

For a week I was near death. The fever weakened me even more. Hidan and Konan tried to feed me, to lower my temperature, to calm me every time I woke up screaming. But I refused to eat, the temperature rose and I stopped sleeping. Each time I fell asleep I was in a black room...naked. There I couldn´t see anything but suddenly there were footsteps heading for me... a cruel laughter... This voice! I knew it... Soon the person arrived next to me and watched me for a moment.

"Deidara," it said, "You´re lost! I own you, bitch!"

All of sudden the pain hit me... the enormous pain from before... and I saw Sasori laughing at me.
I couldn´t stand this dream any more! Too...painful! So I refused to close my eyes even if Hidan and Konan begged for it.

"Dei, you´ll die if you don´t sleep! You have to rest!"

"Please Dei, fuck! It´ll kill you... Believe me, nobody can hurt you! You´re safe!"

But I wasn´t and still I´m not! I sense his presence and feel his gaze on me every time I walk through the living room/ the corridor/ the kitchen/ the garden. There´s no safe place for me! Nowhere! I know that he´ll do it again as soon as I´m alone. And I will be alone again! They can´t take care for me all day. But until now he hadn´t the chance because Hidan followed me everywhere. I´m thankful for his care but the day will come. The day when I´m totally alone. I´ll try to protect myself with my clay (I bought some yesterday) but it won´t stop him. Sasori is stronger than me! So I live in fear every day... every minute... every second. Happiness, safety, warmth... all these feelings are gone forever.  I can´t laugh nor smile any more. Weakness, fear, anger, desperate love rule my heart and destroy me from inside. And I can´t do anything about it as long as he´s there. What´s worth living for? I don´t know any more. Before I got to know him it was my art. But now? Even that is worthless. Where´s the cruel fighter I was before? I don´t know! He´s gone forever. Where´s my strength?  Why can´t I get rid of my love for him? I really want to... but I can´t.   I just want to kill myself but something holds me back. The only thing I´m doing is vegetating. My body has become thinner than ever, I´m pale, my eyes without life. I hate you! But I love you!

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"Deidara, Pein wants to see you," Kakuzu says.

Carelessly I stand up and walk into our leaders room. Sasori is already there sitting on one of the chairs in front of Pein´s table. My heart skips a beat though I try to control my body. I sit down besides the redhead and concentrate on the window. The first time... I knew it... too early... It´s the first time we´re totally alone again. The only thing I can do is hoping that leader will arrive as soon as possible.
Chuckling the redhead turns to me. His chocolate brown eyes burn into my face. His head comes closer and he starts whispering.

"Where´s your bodyguard, brat?"

As an answer I simply shrug while pictures of him... and me... show in my thoughts. He... moaning...my blood... laughing... the pain... no end... I try to concentrate on the weather outside but he doesn´t let me. His presence makes me remember everything. I-I don´t want to... but I can´t.
Then his soft warm lips start kissing my cheek.... He softly bites into my ear lobe earning a slight shudder.

"You can´t escape! Sooner or later I´ll always get you, bitch!"

"Sasori stop that," Pein orders who suddenly arrived out of nowhere, "I have a mission for you two but it will only work if you´re a team. And I don´t think that Deidara will work with you as long as you do such a thing! So no sexual harassment, Sasori!"

"Sorry leader," he smiles innocently, "He´s just too delicious!"

"Anyway stop this, okay!?"

"All right!"

But I know that he´s lying.